The 13 hour flight with Ms Claire is a horrifying experience!
Claire refused to sleep on the plane and she slept only for 1 hour during the flight. She was making so noise that i felt so frustrated and tired.
She wailed and screamed, refused to be buckled up during turblence on the flight and all sorts of pacifying, whacking dun work on her! I just gave up and let her cried and screamed!
Some passengers expressed their annoyance especially that fat couple sitting behind us but nothing we can do!
I was so relieved when we finally landed at Heathrow Airport! Guess, its better to travel on a night flight for long haul flights!
Monday, May 25, 2009
Friday, May 15, 2009
Another experience
Will be going to Changi Airport in another 7hours plus.
Just finished packing the lugguage, its such a torture... The stuff we packed is as if we re on the run (mostly Ms Claire's stuff)
Now, the 13hour flight to London is going to be a challenge. I just hope for the best.
Just finished packing the lugguage, its such a torture... The stuff we packed is as if we re on the run (mostly Ms Claire's stuff)
Now, the 13hour flight to London is going to be a challenge. I just hope for the best.
Thursday, May 14, 2009
Appraisal
I had my appraisal with SS yesterday. I had braced myself for the worst but I was quite surprised at the outcome. I did not receive any violent backlash from her and I did not react defensively to some points she raised about me.
The most truthful point that she raised about me is that I had lost my motivation to learn (ie work) and I m just giving her the minimum. Well, my answer to her is that there is no monetary motivation and I dun see any point in doing this appraisal as my increment is not dependent on this appraisal.
She defended this appraisal by telling me that the company doesn't have a complicated appraisal mechanism and no peer to peer or 360 degrees appraisal coz different managers have different sets of standards. Thus, our increment is not dependent on the appraisal.... I was like, "WTF" inside my mind... As my company is considered a MNC and their appraisal system is like... so so ELEMENTARY.... I have nothing to say.
Furthermore, she said that I m short sighted not to have the desire to learn. I told her matter of fact that we worked as we need to support ourselves and family, it is monetary & realistic to learn. The desire to learn must come from within, i agree but with the lack of monetary motivation and the poor management from SS... Any desire to learn is being killed off!
The best part is she commented on me saying that I m crude in my communication. I was totally stunned... This is personal. In all my official correspondence with my colleagues & counterparts, I had never ever used any vulgarities on them before and always be polite. So far, noone has ever complained to her about my "crude" communication. So, this aspect is personal.
Anyway, in this appraisal... My opinion of her still stands the same, till i found another opportunity if not my desire to learn, motivation to learn will never be renewed.
The most truthful point that she raised about me is that I had lost my motivation to learn (ie work) and I m just giving her the minimum. Well, my answer to her is that there is no monetary motivation and I dun see any point in doing this appraisal as my increment is not dependent on this appraisal.
She defended this appraisal by telling me that the company doesn't have a complicated appraisal mechanism and no peer to peer or 360 degrees appraisal coz different managers have different sets of standards. Thus, our increment is not dependent on the appraisal.... I was like, "WTF" inside my mind... As my company is considered a MNC and their appraisal system is like... so so ELEMENTARY.... I have nothing to say.
Furthermore, she said that I m short sighted not to have the desire to learn. I told her matter of fact that we worked as we need to support ourselves and family, it is monetary & realistic to learn. The desire to learn must come from within, i agree but with the lack of monetary motivation and the poor management from SS... Any desire to learn is being killed off!
The best part is she commented on me saying that I m crude in my communication. I was totally stunned... This is personal. In all my official correspondence with my colleagues & counterparts, I had never ever used any vulgarities on them before and always be polite. So far, noone has ever complained to her about my "crude" communication. So, this aspect is personal.
Anyway, in this appraisal... My opinion of her still stands the same, till i found another opportunity if not my desire to learn, motivation to learn will never be renewed.
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Pandols saved the day!
For the past 2 days, I dun have to work late but been suffering from horrible headaches coz of the weather and the amount of adhoc work to clear before going on leave.
I was supposed to do my appraisal with SS today but it was postponed till tomorrow coz SS had a headache after a lengthy cum heavy discussion with our CFO. Then, SS discovered some formulation error in one of the files I had done for her....
After 3 rounds of thorough checking, we discovered a US12million discrepancy between the SAP & Hyperion data... We tried to reconcile but fail... Tomorrow i got to write a love letter to my counterpart in South Europe to assist!
I have this feeling that once the new company structure takes place and the new CEO starts work... There are going to be a lot of changes... Regardless good or bad, I will survive.
I was supposed to do my appraisal with SS today but it was postponed till tomorrow coz SS had a headache after a lengthy cum heavy discussion with our CFO. Then, SS discovered some formulation error in one of the files I had done for her....
After 3 rounds of thorough checking, we discovered a US12million discrepancy between the SAP & Hyperion data... We tried to reconcile but fail... Tomorrow i got to write a love letter to my counterpart in South Europe to assist!
I have this feeling that once the new company structure takes place and the new CEO starts work... There are going to be a lot of changes... Regardless good or bad, I will survive.
Monday, May 11, 2009
So what if u re pregnant?
The morning train is always packed and filled with inconsiderate people.
As usual, this morning... I was sandwiched in the train and this lady kept on leaning against the pole and being me evil me, i heck care and let my movements bothered her so that she will move in.
Unfortunately, she did not and I was amazed by it as she simply kept her eyes closed. It was until at Bugis station then i realised she was pregnant. I felt guilty for my movements but on second thoughts, so what if you 're pregnant? You should not expect people to give in to you and in such circumstances, you should just move in!
Anyway, i know its tough being pregnant but being inconsiderate, you deserved it to be made uncomfortable!
As usual, this morning... I was sandwiched in the train and this lady kept on leaning against the pole and being me evil me, i heck care and let my movements bothered her so that she will move in.
Unfortunately, she did not and I was amazed by it as she simply kept her eyes closed. It was until at Bugis station then i realised she was pregnant. I felt guilty for my movements but on second thoughts, so what if you 're pregnant? You should not expect people to give in to you and in such circumstances, you should just move in!
Anyway, i know its tough being pregnant but being inconsiderate, you deserved it to be made uncomfortable!
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Driving me nuts!
Ms Claire is driving me nuts these days!
She is being rebellious!!! She refused to finish her porridge, refused to drink her water from the bottle (we got to SPOON FEED her!!!) And REFUSED TO SLEEP when she is really tired!
Then, it ended me being frustrated => screamed & yelled at her => Claire crying even louder => further irritated me!!!
One of the incidents today, PK & I are converting our study room into her bedroom. We re so busy with it and I gave her crayons and told her to draw on the mahjong paper placed on her table. While we were busy, Claire used the crayon and drew on the floor!! I was so mad, this was not the first time and i warned her before.
So, i lectured her and cleaned up the mess. Then my part time cleaner told me that i can't be soft hearted as i need to really discipline her by smacking her hand. I told her that I had done it before and i dun want to always do it coz it hurts her and my heart.
After a while, I went inside the room and saw another patch of GOLD colour on the floor! I really got mad and pulled Claire to the area where she colored. I smacked her hand, she cried and shouted for PK to rescue her! Boy, it was so frustrating! The worst thing is PK instead of educating Claire, claimed that its my fault to buy crayons and let her draw!!!
Anyway, Claire seems to know that she made me upset over the weekend. Just now during dinner, she kept on kissing me and talking to me in her girly tone. It is as if she is telling me, "Mama, i know i m notti and i promised i try not to do it again!"
This gal of mine!
She is being rebellious!!! She refused to finish her porridge, refused to drink her water from the bottle (we got to SPOON FEED her!!!) And REFUSED TO SLEEP when she is really tired!
Then, it ended me being frustrated => screamed & yelled at her => Claire crying even louder => further irritated me!!!
One of the incidents today, PK & I are converting our study room into her bedroom. We re so busy with it and I gave her crayons and told her to draw on the mahjong paper placed on her table. While we were busy, Claire used the crayon and drew on the floor!! I was so mad, this was not the first time and i warned her before.
So, i lectured her and cleaned up the mess. Then my part time cleaner told me that i can't be soft hearted as i need to really discipline her by smacking her hand. I told her that I had done it before and i dun want to always do it coz it hurts her and my heart.
After a while, I went inside the room and saw another patch of GOLD colour on the floor! I really got mad and pulled Claire to the area where she colored. I smacked her hand, she cried and shouted for PK to rescue her! Boy, it was so frustrating! The worst thing is PK instead of educating Claire, claimed that its my fault to buy crayons and let her draw!!!
Anyway, Claire seems to know that she made me upset over the weekend. Just now during dinner, she kept on kissing me and talking to me in her girly tone. It is as if she is telling me, "Mama, i know i m notti and i promised i try not to do it again!"
This gal of mine!
Love is waiting or waiting for love?
Today is Mothers' Day. My younger SIL asked PK where to celebrate Mothers' day and the location chosen was the zi char restaurant near our place. This zi char restaurant is called Zi Yean and the standard has dropped... So i guess, i wont be going there to eat often.
I told PK to meet his clan first as I need to pack our stuff for this week's stay at Mum's place before we flew off to London on Friday.
So i arrived there about 20 mins later, I was surprised to see a stranger... Well, not exactly a stranger... He is my younger SIL boyfriend! Now, there is nothing wrong in having a boyfriend for a widow... but my SIL has 3 children... USually, most MEN wont be able to accept it.
Anyway, I kpo and asked PK. Apparently, this guy is my SIL's Secondary Schoolmate and they had known each other for years (including the late husband). So, i asked PK if they knew each other first, then when did the late BIL come into the picture? PK can't answer me but as far as we knew, it was a shotgun marriage for my SIL.
Frankly speaking, i was quite surprised about how long the boyfriend has waited for her, assuming that he is still single & never married before. In these days, i seldom heard about waiting for someone and especially if that someone is married... U dun wait for their spouse to die or divorce rite? Its just plain old silly!
Perhaps this is the reason y my SIL's mother in law refused to give her a portion of her late husband's insurance $$$! Anyway, its pure speculation on my part. I wish them all the best! :)
I told PK to meet his clan first as I need to pack our stuff for this week's stay at Mum's place before we flew off to London on Friday.
So i arrived there about 20 mins later, I was surprised to see a stranger... Well, not exactly a stranger... He is my younger SIL boyfriend! Now, there is nothing wrong in having a boyfriend for a widow... but my SIL has 3 children... USually, most MEN wont be able to accept it.
Anyway, I kpo and asked PK. Apparently, this guy is my SIL's Secondary Schoolmate and they had known each other for years (including the late husband). So, i asked PK if they knew each other first, then when did the late BIL come into the picture? PK can't answer me but as far as we knew, it was a shotgun marriage for my SIL.
Frankly speaking, i was quite surprised about how long the boyfriend has waited for her, assuming that he is still single & never married before. In these days, i seldom heard about waiting for someone and especially if that someone is married... U dun wait for their spouse to die or divorce rite? Its just plain old silly!
Perhaps this is the reason y my SIL's mother in law refused to give her a portion of her late husband's insurance $$$! Anyway, its pure speculation on my part. I wish them all the best! :)
Decision
I had decided to delete all those old, negative posts about myself, my family & in laws....
It is my first step to trash out all those negativity! No point having bad memories to haunt me!
It is my first step to trash out all those negativity! No point having bad memories to haunt me!
Saturday, May 9, 2009
Recent Pix
Its quite tough to take a decent picture of Ms Piggy these days. This is one of the better ones! Friday, May 8, 2009
The Cat Lady
One day, I was taking the lift. Mum's 13th floor neighbour aka the Cat lady - CL (she feeds food to the stray cats around Mum's neighbourhood) indicated to me to wait for her.
So, she went into the lift and asked me, our conversation as below:
CL : When is your 2nd child due?
Me: No lah, i m not pregnant!!! (I was thinking, shit i must be putting on weight!!!)
CL: Better dun give birth to kids.... The papers wrote that in 2012, is the end of World. Dun let the kids suffer....
Me: Oh... (Sheesh, when is the lift going to reach 13th floor!!!!)
CL: I told my daughter quickly have the 2nd child. 2 is enough, no need to have more than that.
Me: Orh........... (Bloody hell, still not 13th floor yet! Why the lift so SLOW!!!!)
CL: Gal, i think too late for you to have a cow baby... Better to wait till Rabbit... Rabbit good... Tiger no good (Lift door already open and walking out to my Mum's pl)
Me: Orh.... (Walks fast fast to the stairs!!!)
Mum and I will siam Cat Lady whenever i see her, somehow we just find it strange that her husband is so normal... yet she is weird.....
So, she went into the lift and asked me, our conversation as below:
CL : When is your 2nd child due?
Me: No lah, i m not pregnant!!! (I was thinking, shit i must be putting on weight!!!)
CL: Better dun give birth to kids.... The papers wrote that in 2012, is the end of World. Dun let the kids suffer....
Me: Oh... (Sheesh, when is the lift going to reach 13th floor!!!!)
CL: I told my daughter quickly have the 2nd child. 2 is enough, no need to have more than that.
Me: Orh........... (Bloody hell, still not 13th floor yet! Why the lift so SLOW!!!!)
CL: Gal, i think too late for you to have a cow baby... Better to wait till Rabbit... Rabbit good... Tiger no good (Lift door already open and walking out to my Mum's pl)
Me: Orh.... (Walks fast fast to the stairs!!!)
Mum and I will siam Cat Lady whenever i see her, somehow we just find it strange that her husband is so normal... yet she is weird.....
Appraisal soon
Grr, SS will be conducting the appraisal soon...
I sianz coz got to act again. The appraisal in my co => do it for the sake of doing it. Pay increment is not based on that, plus its more like more work being allocated to you.
I sianz coz got to act again. The appraisal in my co => do it for the sake of doing it. Pay increment is not based on that, plus its more like more work being allocated to you.
Heart Melting Moments 3
I m really amazed by the bond between Ms Piggy & me!
For the past few days, I had been working late due to my month end closing. On Wednesday, Claire literally did not see me at all!
She was asleep when i went to work and back at Mum's place. I heard her stirred past midnight but i din check on her and went to sleep. Somehow, she managed to wake me up again and I went to check on her. She looked at me with her bright eyes and called me, "Mama" and made noise. (Her indication to drink milk)
I went to the kitchen and made milk for her. She followed me to the kitchen and back to the room. I told her to go back to sleep once she finished the milk but she did not and kept on calling me, "Mama"
After a while, thunder and lighting struck, Claire was frightened by it and I moved to sleep besides her. It was then she fell asleep.
Next morning, she woke up earlier than I so that she can catch me. What melts my heart is she calling me, "Mama" first thing in the morning and giving me her cheeky smile!
But this morning, I saw her running nose and sneezing... I think she must have caught a bug... Sigh.. hopefully she recovers in time for the London trip!
For the past few days, I had been working late due to my month end closing. On Wednesday, Claire literally did not see me at all!
She was asleep when i went to work and back at Mum's place. I heard her stirred past midnight but i din check on her and went to sleep. Somehow, she managed to wake me up again and I went to check on her. She looked at me with her bright eyes and called me, "Mama" and made noise. (Her indication to drink milk)
I went to the kitchen and made milk for her. She followed me to the kitchen and back to the room. I told her to go back to sleep once she finished the milk but she did not and kept on calling me, "Mama"
After a while, thunder and lighting struck, Claire was frightened by it and I moved to sleep besides her. It was then she fell asleep.
Next morning, she woke up earlier than I so that she can catch me. What melts my heart is she calling me, "Mama" first thing in the morning and giving me her cheeky smile!
But this morning, I saw her running nose and sneezing... I think she must have caught a bug... Sigh.. hopefully she recovers in time for the London trip!
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
The Consumer is the KING!
The Consumer is the King! => This is what I learnt during my Uni days for my marketing elective!
I was so pissed off with SQ's non response to my excess baggage allowance request and I wrote in today to feedback about their fanastic service.
I commented on their response to my request and comparision of their customer service with other Airline carriers and how disappointed I am with them as I paid a PREMIUM to travel with them!
The response was so prompt. I wrote in the morning and the reply came back to me in the noon. Better still, I was granted extra 10kg of baggage allowance to London & London back to Singapore! So, i guess the Consumer is the King is really true!
I was so pissed off with SQ's non response to my excess baggage allowance request and I wrote in today to feedback about their fanastic service.
I commented on their response to my request and comparision of their customer service with other Airline carriers and how disappointed I am with them as I paid a PREMIUM to travel with them!
The response was so prompt. I wrote in the morning and the reply came back to me in the noon. Better still, I was granted extra 10kg of baggage allowance to London & London back to Singapore! So, i guess the Consumer is the King is really true!
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
Tired
Last night, I came home late due to this dumb tele-conference that I needed to attend.
Ms Piggy was asleep when i m home. PK was reading his online manga using my notebook, I told him i need to use the notebook and it started another nagging session.
I guess PK still dun understand how sick and tired I am of my current situation with everything going on. I m sick of the childcare arrangement, I m sick of my job, I m sick of the lack of concern given to me by PK. Basically, I need some me time to myself. I just wanna be selfish, ditch Claire with him and do what i wanna do!
After a while, he went to sleep in Sis' room while I m watching the Korean drama. I can hear him snoring and his teeth grinding. I felt so bad for nagging at him, he also has his own stress and stuff but he never told me much about it. I dunno what to say but i find it really tough to cope at the current moment.
Ms Piggy was asleep when i m home. PK was reading his online manga using my notebook, I told him i need to use the notebook and it started another nagging session.
I guess PK still dun understand how sick and tired I am of my current situation with everything going on. I m sick of the childcare arrangement, I m sick of my job, I m sick of the lack of concern given to me by PK. Basically, I need some me time to myself. I just wanna be selfish, ditch Claire with him and do what i wanna do!
After a while, he went to sleep in Sis' room while I m watching the Korean drama. I can hear him snoring and his teeth grinding. I felt so bad for nagging at him, he also has his own stress and stuff but he never told me much about it. I dunno what to say but i find it really tough to cope at the current moment.
Monday, May 4, 2009
Heart Bleeding again
Ms Piggy bled my heart again.
Currently, she is anti porridge. She simply refused to eat her porridge and we have to use a variety of approaches soft & hard to make her eat.
Yesterday was the ultimate. She loves to play with our PC and we used that to make her eat. But this trick dun last and she refused to eat. Being the clean freak me, I dun like to eat inside the rooms to attract insects, some of her porridge landed on my $1k Herman Miller chair. That did it and I decided to end all these nonsense by instructing PK to carry her out of the study room.
Boy, how she HOWLED! She was struggling when PK carried her out and she WHACKED ME with her hand when she was standing outside the door! I immediately WHACKED her hand back and lectured her, "I am your Mother and I gave birth to you. ONLY I CAN WHACK YOU and not the other way round!" I gave her a few more whacks on her hand.
While i was doing that, she was looking at the floor and wailing. And i got her to look at me directly, she REFUSED and continued looking at the floor. My heart bled when i was whacking her hand.
She kept on crying and reaching out for me to pacify her but i refused. She went to PK but PK told her that she is misbehaving and won't pacify her. She kept on crying even when i gave her a shower. She only stopped when I pat her to sleep.
All i can say is, its a new challenge everyday to handle her antics!
Currently, she is anti porridge. She simply refused to eat her porridge and we have to use a variety of approaches soft & hard to make her eat.
Yesterday was the ultimate. She loves to play with our PC and we used that to make her eat. But this trick dun last and she refused to eat. Being the clean freak me, I dun like to eat inside the rooms to attract insects, some of her porridge landed on my $1k Herman Miller chair. That did it and I decided to end all these nonsense by instructing PK to carry her out of the study room.
Boy, how she HOWLED! She was struggling when PK carried her out and she WHACKED ME with her hand when she was standing outside the door! I immediately WHACKED her hand back and lectured her, "I am your Mother and I gave birth to you. ONLY I CAN WHACK YOU and not the other way round!" I gave her a few more whacks on her hand.
While i was doing that, she was looking at the floor and wailing. And i got her to look at me directly, she REFUSED and continued looking at the floor. My heart bled when i was whacking her hand.
She kept on crying and reaching out for me to pacify her but i refused. She went to PK but PK told her that she is misbehaving and won't pacify her. She kept on crying even when i gave her a shower. She only stopped when I pat her to sleep.
All i can say is, its a new challenge everyday to handle her antics!
Saturday, May 2, 2009
Labour Day!
Yesterday it was really Labour Day for me!
For lunch, we went to Taka's Crystal Jade La Mian Restaurant to celebrate Doris' birthday. After lunch, we window shopped so that Claire will fall asleep in her stroller. True enough, she fell asleep soon!
Mum went to trim her hair while I window shopped at Wisma. Once Mum got her hair cut, I sent Mum home and went to Blur Ting's place (a few minutes drive away from Mum's place but 30 minutes walk from Mum's place)
Claire was blur blur when she first stepped into Ting's apartment. She was happy to see Rusty but apprehensive of it. Once she got herself warmed up, I really pity Rusty! Rusty was subjected to the rough handling of Ms Piggy. Claire literally whacked Rusty when she was patting it and she was fascinated with Rusty's tail! She made several attempts to catch his tail!
I was worried that she might hurt Rusty and Rusty is really a GOOD dog! He does not bark when he sees strangers, he just sniffed at us and went back to what he is doing! But poor Rusty got disturbed by Claire, Kay and Ah Fry as much as he wants to sleep! I can see it in his eyes, "Grr, i want to sleep... Pls dun disturb me!"
Once Claire warmed up, she "harassed" Rusty, played with Kay... More like what Kay is doing, she also followed! I will say both of them, 1 year apart but are so ACTIVE till the parents also buey tahan! Kay is so cute, she loves to do disgusting things and show it to me. Her Papa kept on telling her not to do it but i forgotten to tell her Papa that Claire is more disgusting than Kay.. Coz Claire has her yiyi & kao fu to teach her more disgusting things! That i should not say much!
Basically, Claire has so much fun but it was LABOURIOUS for me! Claire knocked out on the way home and she slept till 9am this morning (with a milk break at 12.30am)!
I really enjoyed myself at Ting²'s place even though i can't stay for dinner (need to accompany Mum for dinner). I hope to meet up with them more! Hopefully, Ms Piggy will know how to treat Rusty more gently next round! Thank you Ting² & Family, Ah Fry, Steph & family for the company & food! :)
For lunch, we went to Taka's Crystal Jade La Mian Restaurant to celebrate Doris' birthday. After lunch, we window shopped so that Claire will fall asleep in her stroller. True enough, she fell asleep soon!
Mum went to trim her hair while I window shopped at Wisma. Once Mum got her hair cut, I sent Mum home and went to Blur Ting's place (a few minutes drive away from Mum's place but 30 minutes walk from Mum's place)
Claire was blur blur when she first stepped into Ting's apartment. She was happy to see Rusty but apprehensive of it. Once she got herself warmed up, I really pity Rusty! Rusty was subjected to the rough handling of Ms Piggy. Claire literally whacked Rusty when she was patting it and she was fascinated with Rusty's tail! She made several attempts to catch his tail!
I was worried that she might hurt Rusty and Rusty is really a GOOD dog! He does not bark when he sees strangers, he just sniffed at us and went back to what he is doing! But poor Rusty got disturbed by Claire, Kay and Ah Fry as much as he wants to sleep! I can see it in his eyes, "Grr, i want to sleep... Pls dun disturb me!"
Once Claire warmed up, she "harassed" Rusty, played with Kay... More like what Kay is doing, she also followed! I will say both of them, 1 year apart but are so ACTIVE till the parents also buey tahan! Kay is so cute, she loves to do disgusting things and show it to me. Her Papa kept on telling her not to do it but i forgotten to tell her Papa that Claire is more disgusting than Kay.. Coz Claire has her yiyi & kao fu to teach her more disgusting things! That i should not say much!
Basically, Claire has so much fun but it was LABOURIOUS for me! Claire knocked out on the way home and she slept till 9am this morning (with a milk break at 12.30am)!
I really enjoyed myself at Ting²'s place even though i can't stay for dinner (need to accompany Mum for dinner). I hope to meet up with them more! Hopefully, Ms Piggy will know how to treat Rusty more gently next round! Thank you Ting² & Family, Ah Fry, Steph & family for the company & food! :)
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