2009 Year End Review/Reflections

As year 2009 is coming to an end in 8 days time, its the time of the year where i will be doing a review or reflections of what I had done in the year.

Well, i must say... Looking back, its as if nothing much has happened but there are alot of changes in my life.

1. Family
My parents' problem has finally came to a pinnacle and full blown in everyone's faces. Well, it affected us (my siblings & me) but I had taken this approach, just let them be and do my part as what a child got to do.

On the in laws, its a tough battle. I have to learn how to accept them for what they are and at the same time, drop my prejudices against them too.

2. PK & Me
Like any couples, we have our fair share of ups & downs. Both of us are working together to build a stronger marriage even though we have this difference on rearing Ms. Piggy!

3. Piglet
This little gal is one tough cookie and its a challenge in raising and teaching her. She is real stubborn and a smart one. She knows which buttons of the adults to push in order to get her demands met. As much as she tries my patience and push my boundries, seeing her cheeky smile will melt my heart and throw all my worries and troubles away!

4. Myself
I must say, there has been a lot of toxic and negative elements inside me. I am resentful of alot of things and envious of others. And i always asked myself this question, "What's wrong with myself?" I thank God that help was given to me in many ways that I dun realised it. I won't say that those toxic & negative elements are 100% gone but I m getting them out of my system slowly.

Now, I just gotta tell myself not to take things too seriously and not to be too hard on myself. Humans are not perfect and I should be able to accept that of myself. :)

5. Work
Work is stagnant and instinctly, I know I had to get out of it. But i did not as I had made a lot of excuses for unable to leave, like 2 months notice, fear of a new work environment, difficulty in finding a job, being "chopped" in terms of pay negotiation in the new job etc etc... The more I had all these excuses, the harder it is to leave and not to mention, resentful emotions start to accumulate! So, I had given myself a timeline for my current work situation. This will buy me some time and enable me to plan my next move!

Finally, 2009 is really an interesting year for me and my only wish is that 2010 will be an even better year! :)

Death - a release

Last weekend, Mum, Bro & the Ang family went to visit my Sembawang Auntie.

Auntie was diagnosed with cancer 9 years ago and she had a relapse in March this year. The relapse was back with a vengance! Auntie did not want to go through chemotherapy but her family encouraged her to go and thus, she went for it.

In June, Auntie went to attend K's 1st month celebration and she was unhappy during the celebration as my Uncle and cousins forbidded her to eat the buffet spread at the celebration. In fact, Auntie even threw tantrums and Uncle was pissed off with Mum and friends as he deemed them to let Auntie to have the food!

But Uncle & my cousins were unable to see from Auntie's point of view, Auntie knew that even though she has gone for the chemotherapy but to her, its just prolonging her life cum suffering. Thus, she knew that she can pass away anytime, she definitely wants to eat what she wants and do what she wants!

Back to last weekend's visit, she was happy to see us but it was upsetting for me to see her in such a state. She was so fragil, she told me matter of fact that she is not doing well as she can't eat or sleep. Her weight has gone further down from 40++kg to 30++kg. Auntie has decided to stop her chemotherapy much to the chargain of her family and she is looking forward to death as she told us that its her only release.

But her family is holding on to her, Uncle being the devoted husband is looking at the ways & means to cook food for her. Currently, Uncle is cooking veggie soup for her and it does help to whet Auntie's appetite. Mum further encouraged Auntie not to give up Uncle's efforts.

I pray that Auntie will not suffer anymore and I told Mum that no matter how upsetting it is. Death will be the only release for Auntie as i really dun want to see her suffer anymore.

Yippee!!!!!!!

Yippeee!!!!!!! Today is the 2nd day that Ms Piggy did not cry when I left her at the childcare centre for work!!

She even kissed me & waved bye bye to me before the teacher brought her for the SOP (temperature check & rashes check!)

Only funny thing is she will stare at those newcomers who wailed like nobody's biz!

My Shoes!

Bought 2 pairs of shoes from Ecco last month and here they are!

Gold Ballerina Flats

Black Flats

First Bite!

The above is the bitemark that Ms Piggy got from her classmate! The childcare centre teacher called me and told me about how this incident arised! The best part is Claire wanted to continue playing with this classmate!

For Mum, its "revenge" as Ms Piggy used to bite Mum when Mum refused to give into her demands. The childcare teachers are stunned to know that Claire is a biter!!! Anyway, i told the teachers that its very common among children to act in such a manner!

Some updates of Ms Piggy

Ms Piggy has been in the childcare centre for 2.5 weeks liao. Well, she is doing fine except that she will still cry when she realised that Mum or me will leave her there in the centre.

I had checked with the Principal yesterday on her status being. The Principal told me that the teachers loved to play with her as she is responsive and sometimes, the teachers will "quarrel" with her. I was surprised to know that Claire is chatty in the school but not surprised to know that she loves to disturb people!

Mum witnessed her "harassing" a classmate (a boy) and 2 other classmates of hers were laughing at her antics! There is a possibility in the future that the teachers will call & complain to me about her antics!

Also, due to the change in the new environment, her poo problem came back and one of these nights, she actually can't sleep due to being constipated. Mum had to resort to insert a soap up her butt to enable her to poo! Not to mention that, Claire insisted on Mum accompanying to her sleep but the moment, Mum came over. She refused to sleep and played!

Last nite, I told Mum to endure her cries and true enough, Ms Piggy knew that even by her demand won't be met even by crying. Not long after that, she fell asleep! This gal of mine is so smart... Really knows which buttons to push to get her demands met!

Currently, her fave person is my bro! Bro just came back from Canberra, initially she was shy and once she warmed up to him. She will ask for him! When Mum fetched her from the childcare centre, she asked Mum, "Kaofu leh?" Not to mention, super happy to see Bro coz Bro will play with her!

Ideal situation

In the ideal work situation, there is no politics, colleagues are nice and things are done in the most efficient, effective & economical way.

But it is only an ideal situation.

In the ideal family situation, the parents are loving, the children are well taken care of and there are no in laws issue.

But it is only an ideal situation.

Conclusion, i m dreaming again... *Slaps* Back to reality to test the report again!