Thursday, December 31, 2009

A test to me!

It s really a test of patience to me!

This morning, Ms Piggy really pushed boundaries to the max. I was in the kitchen preparing food for her lunch and i went out to peek at her.

Her potty was overturned, her urine all over the place and she was playing. Usually, she will inform me when she is done with her small business. I was so angry that I shouted at her for misbehaving. I punished her by making her stand at the corner of the house.

Later on, I explain to her why I punished her and why her behaviour was unacceptable. She refused to look at me or acknowledged me. So I extend her punishment longer, after a while I heard move (from her anklet sound). Apparently, she was tired from the standing, she climbed onto my bed & rest!

Wow, this really riled me up! I told her to come down from my bed and I used the cane on her. This time, she really cried and she cried for me followed by my Mum and Bro (both of them are not at my place). When her crying subsided, I went to talk to her and explain to her. This time, she was willing to acknowledge me and apologise to me.

I could say Claire is real stubborn and really a tough nut to crack. I really must be hard hearted and teach her some lessons if not, she won't learn and might end up being a spoilt brat. Haiz, now my only hope is that PK will cooperate with me on teaching her!

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

自恋时间

Taken on board Colombo Express in 19 Nov 2008

Random

Here are some recent random stuff of happenings....

1. Called Ms. Piggy's childcare centre this morning, received a fair bit of feedback from the principal. Piglet loves to walk up and down the childcare centre, thus the teachers tend to carry her so that she won't disrupt others. Also, she inherited my impatient streak (why can't she inherit PK's patient streak!!!) ... She will have the tendency to snatch things that she wants and when the teachers told her to wait.. She will bang the table to protest...

Guess, I have to further learn how to control my temper and be more patient!! Jiayou jiayou, I can do it!

2. Work, felt extremely relieved when i made the decision. Now, i just do my work and bo chap others. Just kena another flare up from Anna and Anna wanted to flare up at SS when SS is trying to explain stuff to her.

Also, I m surprised at myself too... When Anna flares up at me, I did not feel much anger and i think that Anna's flare up at me is just making herself upset only. Next target, must try to avoid being being the target of flare ups....

3. Sis called this morning and looked for Mum but Mum is not in. Sis told me that she has been having high fever for the whole week and its yoyoing up & down. I told her that its viral fever and suggested she drink salt water and lotsa water... N not to mention to get the "ling yang" from Chinatown to brew. Then her fever will go off... Later on Mum told her the same thing!! I guess she just wants to teh Mum bah.

I think Sis' desire to come back Asia will be stronger. She just mention to me that she might want to re-locate to Hong Kong!

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Lose weight~~

I need to lose weight liao!

My clothes are tight and not to mention being mistaken for pregnant so many times!!!

Only problem is i m too lazy to move my ass!!!

Grr, must find a way out of this!!!!

Company Jokes

1. In the ladies
Colleague A was merlioning like crazy. Colleague B saw it and asked, "R u okie?" Colleague A's reply, "What do you think? Isn't being pregnant like that meh?"

Colleague B totally stunned! Well, we find it funny lah but Colleague A also one kind, people shown you concern plus your side is on the plump side... How do we know that you re pregnant?

2. In the fishtank (my dept)
CFO came in with a NTUC plastic bag. I teased him by asking him about morning grocery shopping at NTUC. From the bag, he gave us some chocolates he bought from Hamburg. When he left, colleague C commented, "Scully, he really bought the chocolates from NTUC!" Colleague D said, "It's the thought that counts!"

Me find it funny to see him carrying a NTUC plastic bag lah... but i doubt the chocolates from NTUC coz the flavour as bit too sweet plus weird for my liking... Conclusion, it is definitely from Hamburg!

Contradictions

Dad was out of his last job recently. He was employed in a security firm that outsourced staff to SMRT for those security personnel in the MRT stations.

He lost his job as a passenger (got checked twice by SMRT security personnel) wrote a 3 pages long complaint email to SMRT. The exact story, I m unsure as Dad was just giving me snippets here and there.

Yesterday, at Redhill MRT station, I saw a Security Personnel (older than Dad), a passenger and the SMRT station control staff. The passenger was complaining to the SMRT station control staff and I overhead his statement, "I dun like the attitude of his, talking to me like that.." (pointing to the Security personnel)

From this 2 incidents, I figured that folks like Dad's age should not be hired to do such job as they might be hard of hearing thus, speaking to folks slightly louder that translate to shouting to our ears unless those used to old folks at home.

I find it contradicting whereby the government strongly encourage senior citizens to work and firms are hiring them as they are considered "cheap labour" yet, they can get themselves out of job easily like such instances.

My conclusion, really must save $$ for retirement as noone is willing to hire senior citizens to work. Such is the reality of life.

Sunday, December 27, 2009

The Basketball wounds will continue...

PK gave me the shock of my life on Wednesday. Wednesday is his basketball nite, a night of freedom where he can play basketball, have dinner with his basketball kakis and a night of freedom (Ms. Piggy & I usually stay overnight at Mum's place every Wednesday except during my month end closing or any special occassions!)

On Wednesday, I went home with Ms. Piggy as for the past few weeks I had been camping at Bedok during the week days. I called him at 9.30pm to check on his whereabouts while on my way home. He told me that he was on his way home as he "errm" me. My radar was up and my only thought was he must want to continue chit chatting with his friends.

When I reached home and finished showering Ms. Piggy, PK still had not came back. So I called him twice and twice, he cut my line off! I was furious! While making milk for Ms. Piggy, he called home and I asked him where exactly he is.... He told me that he is at the A&E in Mt. Elizabeth hospital! This totally threw me off and I "scolded" him for not telling me the truth!

Apparently, he was hurt during the basketball game and the wound (near to his left eyebrow) required stitches that the GP was unable to do it for him. Thus he was referred to A&E in Mt. Elizabeth hospital. This is not the first time he got hurt during his basketball games!

And he still has the cheek to tell me that since he is an old bird at getting hurt. Ice is always the best to stop bleeding and bruises!!! The moment he made this statement, I warned him that NO BASKETBALL GAMES till his stitches are removed and the wound completely recovered. He protested by whining.... but the wife wins for the time being!

Anyway, I think if PK is uncautious, he will continue to get hurt during his basketball nights. I really dunno what to say..... :(

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

2009 Year End Review/Reflections

As year 2009 is coming to an end in 8 days time, its the time of the year where i will be doing a review or reflections of what I had done in the year.

Well, i must say... Looking back, its as if nothing much has happened but there are alot of changes in my life.

1. Family
My parents' problem has finally came to a pinnacle and full blown in everyone's faces. Well, it affected us (my siblings & me) but I had taken this approach, just let them be and do my part as what a child got to do.

On the in laws, its a tough battle. I have to learn how to accept them for what they are and at the same time, drop my prejudices against them too.

2. PK & Me
Like any couples, we have our fair share of ups & downs. Both of us are working together to build a stronger marriage even though we have this difference on rearing Ms. Piggy!

3. Piglet
This little gal is one tough cookie and its a challenge in raising and teaching her. She is real stubborn and a smart one. She knows which buttons of the adults to push in order to get her demands met. As much as she tries my patience and push my boundries, seeing her cheeky smile will melt my heart and throw all my worries and troubles away!

4. Myself
I must say, there has been a lot of toxic and negative elements inside me. I am resentful of alot of things and envious of others. And i always asked myself this question, "What's wrong with myself?" I thank God that help was given to me in many ways that I dun realised it. I won't say that those toxic & negative elements are 100% gone but I m getting them out of my system slowly.

Now, I just gotta tell myself not to take things too seriously and not to be too hard on myself. Humans are not perfect and I should be able to accept that of myself. :)

5. Work
Work is stagnant and instinctly, I know I had to get out of it. But i did not as I had made a lot of excuses for unable to leave, like 2 months notice, fear of a new work environment, difficulty in finding a job, being "chopped" in terms of pay negotiation in the new job etc etc... The more I had all these excuses, the harder it is to leave and not to mention, resentful emotions start to accumulate! So, I had given myself a timeline for my current work situation. This will buy me some time and enable me to plan my next move!

Finally, 2009 is really an interesting year for me and my only wish is that 2010 will be an even better year! :)

Death - a release

Last weekend, Mum, Bro & the Ang family went to visit my Sembawang Auntie.

Auntie was diagnosed with cancer 9 years ago and she had a relapse in March this year. The relapse was back with a vengance! Auntie did not want to go through chemotherapy but her family encouraged her to go and thus, she went for it.

In June, Auntie went to attend K's 1st month celebration and she was unhappy during the celebration as my Uncle and cousins forbidded her to eat the buffet spread at the celebration. In fact, Auntie even threw tantrums and Uncle was pissed off with Mum and friends as he deemed them to let Auntie to have the food!

But Uncle & my cousins were unable to see from Auntie's point of view, Auntie knew that even though she has gone for the chemotherapy but to her, its just prolonging her life cum suffering. Thus, she knew that she can pass away anytime, she definitely wants to eat what she wants and do what she wants!

Back to last weekend's visit, she was happy to see us but it was upsetting for me to see her in such a state. She was so fragil, she told me matter of fact that she is not doing well as she can't eat or sleep. Her weight has gone further down from 40++kg to 30++kg. Auntie has decided to stop her chemotherapy much to the chargain of her family and she is looking forward to death as she told us that its her only release.

But her family is holding on to her, Uncle being the devoted husband is looking at the ways & means to cook food for her. Currently, Uncle is cooking veggie soup for her and it does help to whet Auntie's appetite. Mum further encouraged Auntie not to give up Uncle's efforts.

I pray that Auntie will not suffer anymore and I told Mum that no matter how upsetting it is. Death will be the only release for Auntie as i really dun want to see her suffer anymore.

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Yippee!!!!!!!

Yippeee!!!!!!! Today is the 2nd day that Ms Piggy did not cry when I left her at the childcare centre for work!!

She even kissed me & waved bye bye to me before the teacher brought her for the SOP (temperature check & rashes check!)

Only funny thing is she will stare at those newcomers who wailed like nobody's biz!

Sunday, December 20, 2009

My Shoes!

Bought 2 pairs of shoes from Ecco last month and here they are!
Gold Ballerina Flats

Black Flats

First Bite!

The above is the bitemark that Ms Piggy got from her classmate! The childcare centre teacher called me and told me about how this incident arised! The best part is Claire wanted to continue playing with this classmate!

For Mum, its "revenge" as Ms Piggy used to bite Mum when Mum refused to give into her demands. The childcare teachers are stunned to know that Claire is a biter!!! Anyway, i told the teachers that its very common among children to act in such a manner!

Friday, December 18, 2009

Some updates of Ms Piggy

Ms Piggy has been in the childcare centre for 2.5 weeks liao. Well, she is doing fine except that she will still cry when she realised that Mum or me will leave her there in the centre.

I had checked with the Principal yesterday on her status being. The Principal told me that the teachers loved to play with her as she is responsive and sometimes, the teachers will "quarrel" with her. I was surprised to know that Claire is chatty in the school but not surprised to know that she loves to disturb people!

Mum witnessed her "harassing" a classmate (a boy) and 2 other classmates of hers were laughing at her antics! There is a possibility in the future that the teachers will call & complain to me about her antics!

Also, due to the change in the new environment, her poo problem came back and one of these nights, she actually can't sleep due to being constipated. Mum had to resort to insert a soap up her butt to enable her to poo! Not to mention that, Claire insisted on Mum accompanying to her sleep but the moment, Mum came over. She refused to sleep and played!

Last nite, I told Mum to endure her cries and true enough, Ms Piggy knew that even by her demand won't be met even by crying. Not long after that, she fell asleep! This gal of mine is so smart... Really knows which buttons to push to get her demands met!

Currently, her fave person is my bro! Bro just came back from Canberra, initially she was shy and once she warmed up to him. She will ask for him! When Mum fetched her from the childcare centre, she asked Mum, "Kaofu leh?" Not to mention, super happy to see Bro coz Bro will play with her!

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Ideal situation

In the ideal work situation, there is no politics, colleagues are nice and things are done in the most efficient, effective & economical way.

But it is only an ideal situation.

In the ideal family situation, the parents are loving, the children are well taken care of and there are no in laws issue.

But it is only an ideal situation.

Conclusion, i m dreaming again... *Slaps* Back to reality to test the report again!

Saturday, December 12, 2009

KKH Appointment

Yesterday, PK & I took leave to bring Ms. Piggy for her KKH appointment at Clinic K. She was referred to see the Allergy PD. The appointment was at 2.10pm.

We were lucky that we dun have to wait for long and also Claire was asleep then. (At least, both parents can just sit there to wait for the doctor.) It was so kind of E (she works in KKH) to come and chat with us so that we can pass time while waiting for the doctor.

Claire was still asleep when we saw the doctor. She woke up when the Doctor examined her and she was starting to act up but Dr. Anne Goh was patient with her and spoke softly to her. Thus, Ms Piggy did not started her usual wailing when she is at the Doctor. Dr. Goh was surprised to see that Claire's skin is very good for her eczema condition and from the conversation we had with her, Dr. Goh must be thinking, "The parents are definitely too gan cheong."

Dr. Goh sent Piglet for a skin prick test first. For this skin prick test, Claire was to be tested for 14 type of allergies. Boy, how she wailed & howled during the skin prick test and the test was conducted on her back. First, the lady drawn 14 lines on her back and started pricking Claire 14 times. Its as if Claire is having her tattoo! The test results were out 15 minutes later.

We went back to Dr. Goh and this time, Dr. Goh did not think that we are gan cheong parents. From the skin prick test, Claire is allergic to housedust mites and peanuts!!! Dr. Goh ordered for another blood test (more intensive test on peanuts allergy) and skin prick test (to test for other nuts allergy).

So we went to have the 2nd round of skin prick test, this time it was conducted on Ms. Piggy's left hand. It was another struggle to pin her hand down for the test to be conducted. If you had seen the way she cried, it was so scary and heart breaking but we had no choice. After the skin prick test, we had to send her for the blood test.

While waiting for her turn for it, Mum came over and Claire was so happy to see her Popo! I bought Claire inside the room for the nurse to draw her blood. The nurse attempted to coax her to let them draw blood on her left hand but Ms. Piggy wont. She just crossed her arms and looked away from them. I told the nurses that we have to do it by force. Wow, the nurse was utterly stunned by her strength, we all have to pin both her hands down in order for them to draw the blood.

And she was wailing extremely loud, Mum came into the room and she was stretching her hands out for Mum to carry as if Mum is her saviour! Mum pacified her and she was okie after that. She was so happy to wave bye bye to the nurses and she immediately dashed out of the clinic!

Her next appointment at KKH is scheduled in April 2010. I pray that there will be no more such tests. It breaks my heart to see all the needle holes on her hands & back, in total there are 22 holes. 21 due to the skin prick test and 1 for the blood test! No wonder, Dr Chan and Dr Chow did not recommend me to bring her for these tests.... but what to do when we realised that she has such a bad reaction to Peanut butter and we need to find out!

Ms. Piggy in her uniforms!

"PE" attire after their shower at the childcare centre
Yellow, the only colour that suits her to a T!

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Decisions, decisions

I had been thinking about a lot of stuff recently, the stuff i thought about is the usual, my family & work.

Family, the need for moving from Redhill to Bedok seems to be more and more obvious. Claire has started her childcare life and the centre is situated a few blocks away from my parents' place. Currently, both of us are staying at my parents' place till Ms. Piggy gets used to childcare life. PK was resistant to the idea of moving to Bedok initially but i highlighted to him about the childcare arrangement and Claire's future education. He has gradually accepted it and due to "face" issues, he has not admitted to me that he is actually tired from all these travelling between Bedok & Redhill.

Myself, I m also tired of the travelling but been telling myself that it is not. As i m afraid that if i admit that it is, i might lose the strength to go on. But I m in a stage of self denial, by admitting it earlier at least, i wont find ways and means to escape from the stress of it! Now, i just have to tell myself that its a temporary situation and it will improve soon!

Work, also dependent on the family factor. I m unhappy in my current working environment as its simply stagnant. No room for growth be it in terms of promotion in duties or pay. If SS will to see this post, she will definitely say, "Hey, i had given you the opportunity but you refused to take it!" My answer, "I had given my feedback to you but with your micro-management style and insecurities, you failed to motivate me to go further. That's your failure and please dun blame it on the company structure!"

Recently, I realised why I m so angry with SS and some of my colleagues. I m happy that I knew the reason and at least, I dun have to carry this toxic feelings inside me. Now, I know that I should just do what is required of me and be open to options, be positive and I m sure better opportunities will come along. Also, at the same time, i must learn how to deal with occassional unreasonable demands/requests from SS, Anna and her gang. By knowing to better deal with them, this will enable me to have a better EQ in handling human relations.

Now, i told myself not to think too much about the future. Just do what is required of me at work, spent more time with my family and improve on the communication channels with PK and also at the same time, if there is any better career opportunities, just go for it... I m sure i will be able to get out from this moody period. That i think will be the best decision.

Monday, December 7, 2009

Childcare!

Finally, Ms Piggy has started her childcare centre life!

Last Tuesday, 1st December 2009 was her 1st day! I took half day leave to send her there and accompanied her. The principal briefed us on the SOP and also manage our expectations of the childcare centre. From this briefing, it seems that a lot of parents actually withdraw their children from NxxC childcare centre & sent them here. (Both centres are separated by just one main road!)

Claire was extremely curious about the childcare centre and she was exploring the centre by walking up and down, looking for things to play with. She literally ignored me and she was happily playing with the toys in the centre.

On the 2nd day, PK took leave to accompany her there. She was clingy to PK, she almost got into a fight with another classmate over toys, not to mention she refused to finish her lunch. She still continue her exploration with the centre by walking up & down. The only time she was ok to be sitting down is during sing song session! Mum told me that she ate a lot when she was back home!

On the 3rd & 4th day, Piglet was extremely clingy to Mum and Mum can only sneak off when she was engrossed with toys or being distracted by food. Mum noticed that there is a classmate of hers that want to make friends with Claire. Her classmate was putting her hand on Claire's shoulders and leading her to play with her!

The teachers had to put 2 chairs near to the entrance to prevent Claire from going out and Ms. Piggy was so happy to see Mum when she came to fetch her home!

Starting from today, we will let her be in the childcare centre for the full day session. Mum told me this morning that Claire was all smiles when she worn her uniform for the first time to school. Mum also mentioned that Ms. Piggy was clingy and Mum can only sneak off when she was distracted by toys. I wonder how Claire will fare today!