Monday, January 28, 2008

Eczema

Eczema - That's what Claire is having now!

I bought her to see Dr Chan last Sat and she is diagnosed with Eczema. Her whole face is covered with red, angry rashes and not to mention her body too. Poor little Piglet, her rashes is so itchy that she can't sleep well at night and she will scratch her little face! When i was bathing her yesterday, it pains my heart to see her whole body covered with those angry, red rashes!

Dr Chan prescribed her a steriod cream (heard that it is no good for the skin actually!) and moisturiser to apply. Also, to change her milk formula from cow based to soy based. Unfortunately, Claire seems to have hard stool this morning. Furthermore, no soap, no fragrance products for Claire, she can only use hypoallergenic products!

Mum kept on insisting that her Eczema is a reaction due to the her 5-in-1 jabs and it has nothing to do with her milk formula. Frankly speaking, I m pretty upset by Mum's insistence. Her insistence made me feel that i failed terribly as a Mother even though i know she is concerned about Claire. Mum told me that she will let her TCM doctor to check out Claire's condition, perhaps TCM might help Claire!

Friday, January 25, 2008

Interview

I went for an interview yesterday. The company used to be a statutory board but now privatised.

From this interview, it sets me thinking about loads of stuff and shred some light about myself at the same time. I had been wanting to leave my current job before I gave birth to Piglet due to human factors, benefits and renumeration.

Human factors
The management of the company doesn't allow us to take half days leave or nap at our workstations during lunch hours. Our manager also enforced the rule of us taking our lunch in shifts, not only that she will interfere on who we lunch with at times! All these nitty-gritty stuff is nothing but it makes the workplace inhumane.

Benefits & Remuneration
Frankly speaking, they are nothing fantastic to talk about. The remuneration is worse, it does not compensate for the amount of work we do. Plus there has been some preferential treatment of staff given, this made us even more pissed off!

All in all, there is 1001 reasons for leaving my current job but the most crucial is actually Progression in my career!

This is what the interviewer had set me thinking. I was surprised that my direct & frank personality impressed her even though i m deemed as a job hopper in her eyes and especially when the potential employer is a used to be statutory board.

Whether or not will I clinch a 2nd interview, I m grateful for the advice that she had dished out to me and she highlighted what I had lacked - Perseverance. This is what I had lacked! Perseverance & endurance will definitely get me through work stress and the stress in looking after Piglet now. I seriously have to embark on my goal on being a manager in another 3 years time. Just give me the strength and courage to tide through this period!

100 Days Old!

Claire is 100 days old! That means her Mum aka me can eat whatever nonsense i want!

Actually, i had already eaten seafood & those banned food except for duck & yam after my confinement!

Well, I had gotten Claire's shaved bald last Thursday and she looked like a boy! My family was surprised to see her bald and commented that her Mama is cruel to shave her head bald before Chinese New Year! Anyway, its quite funny to see Claire trying to tug at her hair during bedtime!

Claire has a bad bout of rashes after her jab and I got blamed by the elders for subjecting her to those new jabs.. Blah & blah... I know they re concerned about her but it equally pains my heart to see her in rashes and nothing can be done to soothe her itchiness away!

My little rascal wake me up at 4am this morning with a wide smile and she screamed murder when Mum changed her diaper (I was in the kitchen preparing her milk) as Claire thought that Granny will feed her instead of changing her diaper!

She has given me a sleepless week. I keep my fingers crossed that i will be able to get a good night sleep during the weekends!

Saturday, January 19, 2008

Fever!

Claire went for her 1st 5-in-1 jab on Thursday and she was down with fever yesterday.

Thank god, the fever subsided this morning! Boy, she was real cranky yesterday. She cried, refused to sleep and we had to rock her bouncer so that she could sleep. Her sleep wasn't that fantastic either, she will doze off for a while and be awake again. This cycle goes on and on.

Added to that, I had to attend my company D&D yesterday. This made me real worried about her during my time at the D&D.

Something to lament about! I bought Claire to the polyclinic for her jabs and she needs to be examined by a doctor before her jab. As she still has the blocked nose, so I double check with the doctor whether Claire is ok to go for the jab. Guess what that doctor asked me, "How do you know she has blocked nose? Since babies can't talk, they can only cry!" I was like, "WTF" inside my heart. The way this doctor examined Claire is as if treating Claire like a toy, so rough etc!

And as usual, Claire was crying like nobody's business during that dumbo doctor's examination! Even though, polyclinic's fees are like 10 times cheaper than at the pediatrician's clinic. Still, that can't explain the doctor's lack of care! When i complaint to my Mum about it, she told me that I m being too picky!

Seriously, I might consider going to Dr Chan's clinic for all Claire's jabs despite the cost after this experience!

PS: Claire never wailed as loud when she was at Dr Chan's clinic when we bought her for the Rotavirus & Prevenar jabs as compared at the Polyclinic for her Hep B & 5-in-1 jabs!

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

Back at work!

Today is my 3rd day back at work after 12 weeks long of maternity leave.

There has been a reshuffle of job duties, new colleagues and not to mention tonnes of things to be done!

Looking at the work load & deadlines set for the coming month (Feb), I really dread it big time! Imagine having to finish the month end closing within 6 calendar days aka 5 working days. I dun get to enjoy my Chinese New Year that much!

Also, I m stressed up by family too! My Mum is doing me a great favour by taking care of Piglet. Its just that i have to be worried about her health and i got blasted by her for not helping out in the household chore! I was so torn man! Torn between work & family, Mum & me and finally Pirate King & her.

Now, i m really tempted to throw in the letter and take care of Piglet full time but what's stopping me from doing that is financial independence! Sigh, i just got to take things at a time and see what the future holds!

Sunday, January 13, 2008

Darth Vader

Darth Vader - That's my Claire now!

She is having a blocked nose and the way she breathe is a mini Darth Vader in action!

Blocked nose & bad skin are due to her short stint in the infant care centre (air - conditioning!). It pains my heart to see her unable to sleep at 3am in the morning as her nose is blocked!

Keeping my fingers crossed that the mediciation will work!

Back to work blues!

14 Jan 08 will be my 1st day of work after 12 long weeks of maternity leave!

Somehow, alot of thoughts swirlling in my head. Will I be able to adapt to the working environment? Will I miss Claire? All these thoughts had been there and it just made me dread going back to work!

My poor Piglet is suffering from a blocked nose & bad skin due to her short stint at the infant care centre! She is like Darth Varder.....

Just keeping my fingers crossed that I will be able to survive the 1st day of work!