Weary.. really weary

I m really weary... In a span of 2 days, another family drama unfolds again.

As mentioned earlier in some of my posts, my parents are not on talking terms and their behaviour are downright childish. On Monday, my Dad called me and lashed out at me despites my repeated attempts to tell him to talk to me after 6pm as I m swarmed with work. But NO, he just won't stopped!

I decided I had enough of the parents' behaviour and i had to speak out to both parties separately in order to get the issue resolved or at least made it known to them that their behaviour is getting on everyone's nerves. So, i spoke to my Mum first as I was meeting her after work. I told her the truth about my siblings & my take on their behaviour and told her that both parents are at fault for things to come to such an end. As usual, Mum cried and at that moment, I regretted my decision to tell her that while at the same time, I feel relief.

As I had to stay over at my parents place on Monday nite, Mum came in twice into Bro's room and asked me why do I think she is at fault and questioned me even further as if I m siding with my Father. The thing that pissed me off most is to threaten me with the childcare arrangement again! Nevermind, at 12 midnight, a call from London and asked me why do I have to confront my Mum with the truth?

Next morning, I woke up feeling unwell as due to lack of sleep, my flu has finally blown up. Went to office with blocked nose & ears that led to teary eyes. My colleagues all told me to see the doc & take the day off. Guess what, at the doc's place, Mum called and told me to pick up Claire straight after seeing the doctor as if I can afford to be sick, why not she!

I cleared my work and went to pick Claire up and SK Aunt called and talked to me a while about my Mum's behaviour and advised me on what to do. Later, my Dad called and I was not in a mood to talk to anyone. I just switched my mobile to silent mode. Upon reaching home, HK Aunt called and I told her that I will call her back later as I need to settle Claire first.

I called HK Aunt and she asked me this question, "What do you mean by both parents are wrong? What WRONG did your Mum do?" I was like, "What!" and I replied that I dun want to answer her question and I m tired. She begun to plummet me with accusations and that even if I m tired, I MUST ANSWER HER QUESTION. I got fed up and she even accused me of throwing my temper at her... I really can't take it and broke down & i told her that i need to rest.

Suddenly, I m the one who caused everything. Everything is my fault, I should not have say this or that. I m really sick of all this, pandering to everyone... I m really angry, I m angry at my parents for doing this to me. Why can't they settle their own problem and get so many parties involved? I mean getting a divorce in their 60s is nothing shameful to be about either, what is face? If you really want face, will both of you behave in such a manner?

Now, I m really weary of all this drama. I will talk to my Father on Thursday and my case is closed. I should not bother about them anymore and I want to get on with my live. I dun want to be shackled by them anymore.

Freaky, morbid stuff

I guess it must be the illness in me that led me to have these type of freaky & morbid dreams for the past few days.

In this dream, my family and I went on a vacation & staying at a relatives' place. The bed that I was sleeping on actually has a coffin underneath it! Someone was buried underneath bed!!

It became even more freaky when the whole family decided to open the coffin and checked out who is the person and it turned out to be some relative who has passed away very long ago! It turned out that the relative (owner of the place) knew about it and did not tell us about it.

The dream was so real that I woke up feeling frightened. It just sounded straight out like a movie plot. This is just one of the dreams that I remembered, it is so freaky & morbid.

Perhaps, it meant that there is something swirling in my mind that translates in such a dream.. It might mean positive stuff? Well, i guess its just a form of self-consolation.

Cranky & "Teh" Ms Piggy

Ms Claire caught the flu bug after 4 days in the childcare centre.

It all started with the fever on last Saturday, the fever yoyo from 37.4 degrees to 39.5 degrees. She did not get any better and I bought her to see the PD on Wednesday.

The PD immediately prescribed antibiotics as Piglet has too much phlegm in her lungs and she is worried that her flu might become pneumonia. That got me worried!

Fortunately, the antibiotics worked like a wonder drug. The moment she took it, her condition improved better and now, she still has her blocked nose & cough!

During this period, she is super cranky and I was utterly deprived of sleep. When i m deprived of sleep, I m very short tempered and I can't recall how many times I whacked her or scolded her for being cranky & "teh". Clare can really cry and fuss in order for us to give in to her demands and she was especially upset when i told her to go away and dun call me, "Mama"... I cant help but do this as she was really really getting out of hand.

She is so sticky that I cant get anything done. At night, putting her to bed is another nightmare. She will ask me to go away this moment and the next moment, told me to scratch her head or rub her back. And she will even throw away her IKEA cat (her fave) and her bolster.

Fortunately, she is okie now and I hope that she gets well soon~ Now, i m the one who kena the bug from her.

Horrible Headache!

Was on MC yesterday, due to this horrible headache.

I was fine but after breakfast, i started to have this throbbing headache on my left, followed by seeing stars on the monitor.

I went to see the company doctor and he gave me a day's MC. Diagnosis => FATIGUE!

Went back home, the headache is still there and i had a hard time falling asleep. Sigh, i really need to exercise!

MC

Am on MC today. Doc actually gave me 2 days of MC but i told SS that i will be going back tomorrow for work.

Sprained my back on Sunday while trying to break Piglet's fall. Went for Tui na but still dun helped... Cant get to sleep due to the pain and now..... blogging about it....

Sick again...

What s wrong with me? I got sick again, my nose and ears are blocked....

The best part is tomorrow is MONTH END CLOSING. My idiotic superior wants us to get everything done tomorrow...

Just give me the strength to get the things done tomorrow!

Painful

I was on 1/2 day MC yesterday. For whatever reason, I feel the urge to puke and the greasy feeling in my stomach was enough to make me sick.

The first question that the doctor asked was,"Are you pregnant?" I almost fainted. Anyway, I m not pregnant. It seems that i have a lot of stomach air and its stress-related. Doc told me that I have to learn to relax and let go of things at work.

On the way home, my left side of my body became very stiff and painful. Its as if I can't move at all! So I had no choice but to go for a massage. After the massage, i was feeling better but still the pain is there....

Guess i gotta ignore my dumbo superior at work and relax!

In HK!

Hehe, this is my 2nd trip to HK in 2008!


Arrived here in HK yesterday, my cough is still as bad!


Have not gone out to the major shopping malls yet to get my stuff. Will be doing it in a couple of days!


Ah fry, hehe... I had a very nice dessert today! No picture to tempt you!! :P


The dessert is "Ginger Juice with Milk"... Only this stall near my Auntie's pl is good! Hehee....


More food to be eaten!~ To heck with my cough! :)

Hurts like shit

Me dunno sprained or strained my back muscles!

It hurts like shit now. It happened last night when i tried to grab Piglet as she was crawling away from me to put on her clothes...

Then suddenly, a thrusting pain... The first thing that came to my mind is, "SHIT!"

And the worst thing is Pirate King has a netball practice and cant fetch Piglet home with me. So, poor Mum (who hurt her back too) has to help me carry my bags while i carried Piglet to wait for a cab!

Thank god, the wait for cab wasn't long! Morale of story, I NEED TO EXERCISE!

PS: Down with a lousy sore throat too!

Sleepy...

Very sleepy and having a headache......

Pray i could sleep well tonight.

Ailments that i m suffering now.....

My Lamenting Campaign has started with the first post in the afternoon....

This post will serve as the continuation!

I m suffering from the below:

1. Piles
=> Very simple reason for this one, it must be due to constipation plus the long hours spent in the toilet reading.... The official reason is "PREGNANCY"!

2. Lack of sleep
=> The need to find a good position to sleep well is always my first priority.... However, reality sucks... Whatever position i am sleeping, the sleep will be disturbed and piglet will be the one protesting if the sleeping position is making it uncomfortable!

3. Food Cravings
=> Food cravings must be satisfied at all times.... Poor Pirate King has to grow fat with me and endure my grouchiness when the food can't be found.....

4. To be continued.... or will there be more laments?

Down with Flu!

Flu strikes me! Yucks, feeling very horrible! Groggy and grouchy!

I was on MC yesterday, slept the whole day. I felt better but i m so sleepy today!

Managed to sleep during lunch, to hell with the co policy of no sleeping during lunch! What can you do to a pregnant mama who is sick? Plus all the big bosses are out of town for a meeting! Who gives a shit!

Just keeping my fingers crossed that I will be able to recover soon!